Its been a long long time

Since Ive written to you blog. I just noticed that I have two followers. yay! Darcy and Leslie. At least someone cares enough to add me on this thing! :) I want to know if there is anyone else out there who seems to be constantly thinking and analyzing life in general? One main reason I never write in my blog is that I dont really feel like I have anything really amazing and important to say to the point that I am actually hoping others will read my words of wisdom. Which is why I also hardly ever update my facebook status. I just dont know what should be considered important enough to write. People always seem so confident in their opinions. I hope that I dont know the answers to everything..I hope there is still plenty for me to learn before I start trying to "Tell everyone like it is." But in this case, because I only have close friends and "baseball homies" as lindsey would say, reading this thing, I will try to take it a biiit less seriously. Since my last update way too many things have happened for me to fill in the gaps. But I will say that I am stronger, better, closer to God, closer to my husband and more independent since those years first beginning with the Bees. For a soul that has been quite damaged and repackaged over these 26 years, I feel like I am doing pretty great at this point in my life. Right now I am grateful that Fernie is doing what he loves, I am happy to be with him. I am also glad baseball has shown me who my close friends are (my sis, my best buddy erika, my mom, jenny, and a few others) and let the others drift away a little bit. I am still homesick, that is one thing that hasnt changed since my last blog. But what is it about El Paso, TX that i miss so much? I miss the smell of the desert rain for sure, the way a not so well put together dirt road rocks you as you listen to daddys advice in his truck. I miss shopping with my moma and driving around with her watching her fingers drum the steering wheel to a good song. I miss laughing with Maggie, a glass of wine or coffee and infinately chatting with erika, I miss my brother.. meeting him there at xmas, even the smell of horse poo and going for an evening ride with kimber..the mexican food, sunsets over the valley. The list goes on and on. Every time I go in town I cant seem to get enough of all of it. Im glad that now that I have been away so long I am forced to not take it for granted. And even so, I gladly trade it all to be with my husband. What an amazing man. How crazy lucky am I? Well I have rented Jersey Girl (the cheesy 80s version) only the cutest girly movie ever!!! and I am off to watch it and wait for my hunny to get home from the field.